Fat People Anonymous

Hi. My name is Phannie.

I'm a recovering fat person.

And by recovering I mean, still fat, but working to get "healthier."

As you know, I have been running for the last 4 weeks. And I've been loving it. It's an addiction that I am welcoming back into my life. Well, let me get to the point. I was running last night at my local recreation center when I started to feel a burning in my thighs. Now, normally this is a desirable feeling as a runner trying to thin out in that area, but not last night. The burning got more intense as my run went on.

So, I slow down and only run 2.75 miles instead of 3 miles. Not that big of deal, right? I get off the treadmill and start to check my thighs. Only to find it was what I call, the "fat burn." (The Fat Burn is when a fat persons thighs are rubbing together to create a burning sensation that results in raw, painful thighs.) Yes, I have officially rubbed holes into the thighs of my nice running pants. Sad, sad day. I love those pants. And I'm still in pain.

Still Fat. But still going running tomorrow.

I thought I was supposed to be Constipated!

So, I'm not. I thought I was supposed to be when pregnant. Especially nearing the third trimester.

Does anyone know any foods that plug up this problem? I just don't feel like taking any medications.


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I'm trying to get motivated. Two years ago I got myself off my fat ass and lost all the weight I have currently put back on. (ya ya I know, I'm supposed to. blah blah blah) I'm just not able to motivate myself to get out of the house to go walking or do yoga, or swimming, or anything else that would be healthy for baby.

I had a goal to be that pregnant woman who ran past me in the 5K Freedom Run in 2008. I have NOT kept up my running and can probably not just begin now.

What motivated you to get out while you were pregnant? What motivates you even if you're not?

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Sorry. My ranting is over. Frustration with my lack of excitement is just getting to me.

Out of Wack

Okay, I feel completely out of wack. My body is getting fatter. I want to do things and can't. I want to eat healthy, but my body thinks that food tastes gross. I don't want to force feed myself because I don't want to hate the good food when the pregnancy is over.

It's no secret that the mind/spirit is the real animal we are all trying to understand and tame, but when I'm struggling to control the body as well, I feel like I am riding a roller coaster. One that has gone up, up and is not going down and I can't see the end. Screaming. Lots of Screaming.