Your biggest challenge isn't someone else. It's the ache in your lungs, and the burning in your legs, and the voice inside you that yells can't. But you don't listen. You just push harder. And then you hear the voice whisper can. And you discover that the person you thought you were is NO match for the one you really are.

-Anonymos

14 July 2009

Thank you

I am so excited. My body is feeling better. I can get around my house without wanting to keel over and throw up. It's a great feeling.

09 July 2009

DEAR BODY,

The days are getting better and better. I can eat more, get out more, enjoy activities. It's beautiful. AND it's summer.

HOT FUN IN THE SUMMER TIME!!

Thank you thank you,
Phannie

07 July 2009

Swimming

This weekend was wonderful. I got to go swimming. It was wonderful to be able to do a little bit of exercise.

I woke this morning yearning to run. I don't know that I dare though. Oh, but I want to more than anything. I will be able to soon.

01 July 2009

I got out

I did it. I got out of the house. Of course, it was for a vacation that was already paid for and I couldn't pass up going to the West Coast Beaches. (I've never been before)


Anyway, I didn't realize that walking on the sand after sitting on my butt for four weeks would be so hard. My calves are soooo tight. In ways I've never felt them tight before. But it was all so worth it. I got out. Got a little bit of exercise through all the walking that we did. It felt so great.

22 June 2009

pregnant exercises

I'm feeling a little better this week. I am not going to start running yet. I will start walking again. I'll see how that goes. I need exercise! I am going through withdrawals.

Anyone else been pregnant that NEEDED exercise as much as I do? What things did you do? Were you sick? Did it help keep the nausea down? I need ideas.

16 June 2009

Dear Body

I am so glad that you decided to let me get up today. I don't feel as weak and nauseated. Thanks. It's hard. I find myself wishing to just have my life back. Everyone says it will be worth it. I'm not sure anything is worth being sick all the time. Throwing up is never wonderful. But you haven't had me doing that too often.

I just hope this passes soon. Thanks for the better day.

PHannie

08 June 2009

Dear Body

I know you are exhausted. Nausea is just not very fun. And not being able to eat much is horrible too. But we have to seriously discuss this. . .

We have a race scheduled in two weeks. Is it realistically possible? We haven't been able to run for a week. We have been spending all our time on the couch. I'm not sure that 36 hours in a moving vehicle is the best idea right now. How do we tell Konni? You know what, I think she will understand. I hope she understands. She better understand.

Body, can you cut me a break just for a bit? It would help me out a lot. I know you're under stress, but couldn't you just be tired? NO nausea. PLEASE. Consider it. I will continue to take care of you even if you don't change.

Feel better,