Your biggest challenge isn't someone else. It's the ache in your lungs, and the burning in your legs, and the voice inside you that yells can't. But you don't listen. You just push harder. And then you hear the voice whisper can. And you discover that the person you thought you were is NO match for the one you really are.

-Anonymos

14 February 2015

Eat Clean Struggles.

Taking a 4 month sabbatical from Eating Clean was not a smart idea.  It's extremely hard to get  back to it.  I want to have healthy eating habits.  I want my family to have good eating habits.  This isn't even about getting "skinny" anymore.  I've moved past that.  Getting skinny used to be a good motivator for me, but not now.   I don't want to, I just want to be healthy.  Working through the brainwashing that our media has taught is tough business.  I thought being healthy was going to be a good enough motivator, but I haven't been able to convince my subconscious.   And it's so easy to grab a cookie or cracker, or to pick up a $5 pizza on the way home.  But I know those things aren't good for my stomach.

I don't feel good when I eat them.  I bloat.  I spend the rest of the day passing gas.  My clothes don't feel as though they fit.  And I spend a significant amount of time on my personal throne.  Nothing good comes from indulging. . . maybe that one moment of blissful flavor.  But it's still just one moment.  That moment is just NOT worth it.  Because of my IBS, one moment ruins the rest of my day. My situation gives a whole new meaning to "A moment on the lips, forever on the hips."  My hips spend forever one the toilet.  UGHHHHH!

I need a good way to remind myself to steer clear of the junk.  Anything that has worked well for you?