Dear Body,

This year I set out to Eat Clean and help you become healthier inside.  I made it 8 months.  I ate Clean, felt wonderful, exercised 4-6 times a week, lost 45 pounds, and 3 dress sizes.  It was feeling like a great accomplishment.  Then I lost sight of my real goal. . . To Be HEALTHY!!  Not just to lose weight and size.  I fell off the bandwagon. I started eating too many treats, missing too many workouts, and justifying it all by how great I was feeling and looking.  Only to kill all my hard work in just a few weeks.

So, here I am again.  15 pounds heavier than I was in July.  You now telling me that it doesn't feel good.  You feel lethargic and yucky inside.  You have been nagging me to keep going. To keep my eye on the real goal.

I want to be healthy and create a healthy lifestyle that makes me feel good, keeps you working properly, and that has become a good HABIT.  Apparently 8 months was NOT long enough for me to establish Eating Clean as a habit.  Which brings me to this next year.  . .

12 months of Eating Clean  

The new goal.  It will be done.

I'm truly sorry for all the pain and sickness I have caused this year.  Next year will be another story.

Love,

Phannie

Dear Body,

Can we come to a truce? I have been trying to take care of you, and get you back into tip top shape and THIS is how you thank me? This is the second time. You got sick AGAIN. Really?! I know this time it doesn't feel quite as bad as last, but still. Can you just tell me you need a day to lounge around without getting sick? It would be nice. I promise to not overwork you and give you a day off if you promise not to get sick again for a while. What do you think? Yes?

Yours Truly,
Phannie

Dear Body,

Okay, I know that I have been lax on my discipline with you. You have gotten what you wanted to eat when you want it, and you have slept when you wanted. I know that there is a tiny little parasite growing inside, but it will be gone sooner than you think. I know you are uncomfortable, you are ALWAYS running to the bathroom, REALLY hungry most of the time, BUT that doesn't mean you need to lash out when I do try to get you doing healthy things.

Eating nutrient rich foods is good for you.

Exercise is good for you and can make the excretion of the parasite easier.

Please let me do these two things for you. Please give me back the use of the neck. Please let me take care of you. It will help with recovery when the parasite has left.

Loves,
Phannie

DEAR BODY,

The days are getting better and better. I can eat more, get out more, enjoy activities. It's beautiful. AND it's summer.

HOT FUN IN THE SUMMER TIME!!

Thank you thank you,
Phannie

Dear Body

I am so glad that you decided to let me get up today. I don't feel as weak and nauseated. Thanks. It's hard. I find myself wishing to just have my life back. Everyone says it will be worth it. I'm not sure anything is worth being sick all the time. Throwing up is never wonderful. But you haven't had me doing that too often.

I just hope this passes soon. Thanks for the better day.

PHannie

Dear Body

I know you are exhausted. Nausea is just not very fun. And not being able to eat much is horrible too. But we have to seriously discuss this. . .

We have a race scheduled in two weeks. Is it realistically possible? We haven't been able to run for a week. We have been spending all our time on the couch. I'm not sure that 36 hours in a moving vehicle is the best idea right now. How do we tell Konni? You know what, I think she will understand. I hope she understands. She better understand.

Body, can you cut me a break just for a bit? It would help me out a lot. I know you're under stress, but couldn't you just be tired? NO nausea. PLEASE. Consider it. I will continue to take care of you even if you don't change.

Feel better,

Dear. . .

Dear Body,

I just don't understand. What did I do? Why do I need to be punished. We had scheduled today to start our p90x program again, you love that program, and then you up and pain me all at once. You conspired with Eyes to give me a headache, and Stomach to make me feel like hurling. The Intestines are angry too, they are making me run to the bathroom every 30 mins!

What can I do to make everything better. If I offended you, I'm sorry. If I injured you, I will take care of you until it's all healed. If I have been neglecting you, I'm sorry and am planning on paying more attention starting today.

I guess for now I will have to just give you some time off, watch a movie, read a book, get some craftiness in and eat some good food.

Please forgive me.

Love,
Phannie