Dear Body,

This year I set out to Eat Clean and help you become healthier inside.  I made it 8 months.  I ate Clean, felt wonderful, exercised 4-6 times a week, lost 45 pounds, and 3 dress sizes.  It was feeling like a great accomplishment.  Then I lost sight of my real goal. . . To Be HEALTHY!!  Not just to lose weight and size.  I fell off the bandwagon. I started eating too many treats, missing too many workouts, and justifying it all by how great I was feeling and looking.  Only to kill all my hard work in just a few weeks.

So, here I am again.  15 pounds heavier than I was in July.  You now telling me that it doesn't feel good.  You feel lethargic and yucky inside.  You have been nagging me to keep going. To keep my eye on the real goal.

I want to be healthy and create a healthy lifestyle that makes me feel good, keeps you working properly, and that has become a good HABIT.  Apparently 8 months was NOT long enough for me to establish Eating Clean as a habit.  Which brings me to this next year.  . .

12 months of Eating Clean  

The new goal.  It will be done.

I'm truly sorry for all the pain and sickness I have caused this year.  Next year will be another story.

Love,

Phannie

Fat People Anonymous: Pizza Overload

Hi.  My name is Phannie. 

*Hello Phannie*

I am a recovering fat person.  I fell off the wagon.  I ate Pizza.  Cheesebread.  Cinnastix.  Oh the joy I felt while doing it.  And even a while afterwards, but the next day when I had it again for Lunch. . . 

OH the PAIN.  The guilty pain.  The second round didn't even taste that good.  I wanted to hurl.  I didn't.  (Bulimia, to me, is a waste of money.  Anorexia is more financially sound.  If only food didn't taste so good.)  I didn't even workout Saturday.  OR Sunday.  Which made this mornings workout  DEATH to my muscles.  I could barely get through the workout. Not to mention having to watch my fatness squish together during the ab workout first.  BLEH.   I guess that's what I get for filling my tank with crap. 

New Goal:

Fill my body with energizing foods.  Foods that will get me through my workouts.

Thank you for being my support.

Shred Day 26: Fat People Anonymous

Hi. My name is Phannie.  I have been fat food free for 12 hours.  I know.  I fell off the bandwagon.  There are no excuses, but today is a new day and I WILL do better.  To start this "better" phase I began with:

20 squats
30 lunges
40 calf raises
60 second wall squat
100 jumping jacks
60 second wall squat
40 plie squats
30 leg lifts
20 squats

I'm tired.  My stomach is cramping and I just want a chocolate bar.  However, the goal today is to NOT eat one.  I can do it.

Lazy Pregnant Eating

So much for healthy eating while pregnant. I haven't been to the store in over a week. I am left with an Eatmore and Ruffle potatoe chips for lunch. So nutritious!

Fat People Annonymous: I Fell Off and Rolled

Hi, my name is Phannie.

I am a relapsing fat person.

This year I found out I was pregnant again. Now instead of eating healthy for me and baby, I have given in to my (really early) cravings. The french fries, the burgers, the fried chicken, the ice-cream, the bagels, the CHEESE, the sweets. Oh the joy. UNTIL, I realize that I haven't even seen the Doc yet and I have already pulled out my pregnancy clothing because I HAVE to.

Crawling back to the treadmill is hard. It's so far away. And there are so many other things I could be doing. (ex: cleaning, playing with Sweet Pea, laundry) Focus. Focus.

One day at a time.

Fat People Anonymous: Holiday Hangover

Hi. My name is Phannie and I'm a recovering Fat Person.

There was Christmas. There was New Years. And I fell off the wagon. I just couldn't help it. All the sweets, the delectable delights. Sinful bliss. I want to say that it was worth it, but I'm just not sure that it is. I actually feel bigger. (probably because I am) I feel sluggish. And it's now hard to break the new habits I have developed.

How do you get over your Holiday Hangover?

Sinfulness

There is just not much better than hash browns cooked in bacon grease. YUM!!

I should be worried about this because we are nearing the end of our Biggest Loser Family Challenge, but it is SOOO worth it.

I fell victim to THE PIE

This weekend I couldn't help it. My husband was having an end of year social for a school group and they ordered from The Pie. It's soo good. If you haven't had the opportunity to eat there you should. Visit HERE.

I know that pizza isn't very healthy and doesn't fit into my dietary needs, but I know that it definitely fit into my emotional piggy bank. MMMMMhmmmmmmm. It was worth it and the run tomorrow will be worth it too.